So...I feel a lot different the last time we made a post. Its been a while when i did.
I look at the title of my last post and even tho its almost 4 weeks i still remember what the contents were without reading it lol.
A little update for vynce. Yup, he came back after deactivating for 2 days. The day he deactivated and after that Maybe its not even a full 2 days. I dont know since i didnt go online the day after he deactivated his account. I opened my account a day after he deactivate and saw that hes back online. That was a big relief, i feel ecstatic when i saw he reactivated. Although i wasnt just happy because he reactivate that day i also received lots of good news. Im now able to post on indiehackers, one community enabler messaged me, one organizer for my startup messaged and was amazed by my app's progress, and of course his account reactivation.
So that was it on that day. I was blissful that day for all the good news.
But then it still doesnt feel enough. The app is still waiting to be launched. So i made ridiculous amount of account on social medias to build up my socials as well as to promote it someday. Like x, linkedin, reddit, product hunt, substack, etc. Its funny going through all of that but so far i have good impressions from them. So thats great. I know im in for a long run, but anyways awesome people also use some of that x and linkedin especially which i dont really tend.
I also made a discord server this time. And so far it has 22 members its funny yes its quite inactive but there are good people there, and theyre introducing themselves. I havent did this before. Create and configure a server and apply bots, invite people and stuff. Its a good new experience.
I also signed up for YCombinator cofounder program which gratefully they accepted me in. One person messaged but i message 3 people in there already and bookmarked like 18 people, for reasons like "ooooh great background, theyre in a relevant space??? not sure, theyre on early stage or open for ideas orrrrrrr theyre very cute.". Tho i paused searching.
I was also trying to search for angel investors or someone in the space im working on if they see value in it themselves - which are organizers and hosts but i didnt found anyone im comfortable talking to. Its embarrassing enough to ask people's money when they didnt voluntarily give it to you for a service or product. I feel like if i talk to them im only selling them hope,expectations and vision. Which is ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Then recently, I got more desperate, i cant think rationally. I was fundraising on one discord server(not mine), reddit, searching for fundraising platforms i found many but i dont think i can raise on anywhere, i was emailing pre seed VC's like 6 of em and i hear none of them back.
Funny to look back and think that when i was younger like 1/2 years ago i was like emailing VC's that endorses minimum big checks and i dont care if i have a product or what i just have an idea and a sloppy pitch deck and thinking i can get an investment. It was hilarious.
Tho to be honest i wasnt looking for big check. It was barely a price of our electric bill as the total raise with a minimum of a price of i dont know 2 chips with perks that im offering. But man did i get nothing.
So where am i now. Well now i looked for jobs and found some. Applied to some and received interviews from some. But man i really hate it when they ask me to show my face for zoom call or give them a loom video. Loom is just where you send them a video of you introducing yourself. So i didnt i really couldnt talk to my parents nor anyone i know about this jobs because i dont know. i just have a lot to hide. My insecurities from the interviewer themselves and to my family who would over hear me talk or whatever and more.
So i just decided that i would pick a local job since that hides me more and my parents: mom specifically just want me to go out so she can sense some progress on my business. Oh and even tho yes the job is non technical, theres barely a tech job in baguio alright, i searched in fb groups and linkedin theres none currently and beside if there were i might have hesitated to apply because i dont feel confident. For the past months ive been building my web and mobile app with tremendous help from CGPT and claude and i didnt really had the drive to learn everything since the app is too technical, requires me to learn react native in depth for the algo, front end and backend so fuck off, not to mention i gotta learn expo as well. So ive been very retarded with coding, i barely even know DSA's that are essential let alone implement them. So yes i could be a product pitching guy or system architect that dont know how to code. But who cares i wont even apply for technical roles except front end maybe.
Ive been devoured by my startup that i overlook learning because of my situation its my fault really, i put myself in here. I over shared what i like to do, what my progress were to my parents, well if it wasnt for that i wouldnt have a business or startup to take care of. I would have still be in school miserable. Tho i was also miserable when i was working or finding work before. But for me nothing feels more miserable than being caged. Im not attacking schooling. Its just when youre really driven, when youre rushing, when youre being urged by yourself and others it just feels like school is too small/slow to achieve what i want. Except thats my opinion. Other people who likes to specialize on one specific job have no other option but to go to school like being a doctor a lawyer or a pilot. But for me i didnt choose any of that so thats my stance. Thats why im not forced to go to school. But again your opinion might differ but i dont care what you have to say if youre not someone who envisions bigger things, better society and economy, or more foolish to achieve success.
So thats everything that has happened when i last posted on this blog. I totally stepped out developing the app but at least were finding ourself some grounding by looking for work and working instead of relying on peoples charity or investment and the best part i might look like i have something urgent to do while they dont know i wasnt actually building my business yet i was working on a local business as someone irrelevant.
But anyways the future holds the fortune that we should all work towards and thats something worth waking up excited for and who knows whats waiting for us.